Wednesday, April 25, 2012

The Story of Augustine Ransom's Birth


     The night of April the 1st I began having what I described to my husband, Forrest, as "painful" contractions, and so I got a little excited that it might be time! Little did I know I was just in for a night of prodromal labor and that my first-time-mom butt had no idea what a "painful" contraction was.

      Cut to the next night, I had some more of these "painful" contractions, but I assumed (since it was my real due date and NO ONE in my family could possibly deliver any sooner than two weeks late) that it was more practice contractions, and so I decided to let Forrest sleep. He slept and slept. He slept through me getting in and out of the bathtub several times to try and cope with the pain. He slept through me trying to put counter pressure on my OWN back and tearing up every time I knew a another "fake" contraction was coming. I would like to officially state here that I am a superhero for not waking him up. I am glad I didn't because I needed him to be on the ball the next day, but seriously, I thought I was dying. Finally around 5 a.m. I moaned right in his face something about how I might very well be in labor, and he began to take notice. We pulled up the contraction timer on my tablet and started timing them to see if they were getting organized and regular. They were. WHAT. THE. CRAP. I can't have a baby! It's not time! (Is what I started telling Forrest when he informed me it was time to call the midwife and go in.) Lucky for me I have the most incredible, level headed, works-well-under-pressure husband ever. We called Leslie around 6 am and she agreed that I was likely to have the baby later that afternoon. Leslie's on-call shift was about to end and so we called Carol about an hour later and she agreed to meet us at 8:30 at the birth center. We also called my mom and dad to start driving up from Corpus Christi and one of my best friends:  the most incredible photographer I know, Sarah.  We got everything together and on the way to the birth center I had maybe one or two contractions that weren't that bad. Forrest started worrying that I had quit laboring, but little did he know that things were about to get real.

When we arrived at the birthing center, Makayla, the nurse on call with Carol, began her job of being amazing and wonderful. She got out two birth balls, and I sat on one while Forrest sat on the other and rubbed my back during contractions. By the way, the counter pressure was so great, it almost took the pain away during those earlier contractions. Poor Forrest would just try and do what I asked as I would call out, "Harder!  No, softer! Up! Down!" in rapid succession. To get my labor going faster, Makayla made me some Rasberry leaf tea with black and blue cohosh. It worked. The contractions got harder and more frequent. Carol then advised that we go outside and walk around during contractions to help them work better for me. We went out on the deck and I walked and walked and walked. I walked right through contractions and drank water and ate my peanut butter sandwich.

After a while we went back up into our room so that Carol could see how I was progressing. When I first got to the birth center that morning I was a 4, and when she checked me the second time around lunch time I was a 5! Since I went into this basically expecting to be in labor for days I was always happy with any progress. Right after being checked, Sarah arrived.  That was a fun moment. Forrest informed me that she was on her way up so I might want to put my pants back on (they were off from the aforementioned check) and when I declined and said I didn't care, he exclaimed, and I will never forget this,  "You have lost your modesty! That means you are getting close!" He learned that in the Bradley class. I love that man.

Soon after Sarah arrived, Makayla began filling up the tub for me to get into and I got super excited. Up to this point I was making jokes and talking through contractions. My mom got there just after I got into the tub and I cried when I saw her. I honestly believe that my labor became fast and furious at that point because I was waiting for her to get there. It was so important to me that she get to share in this incredible event in my life, and after driving 7 hours through tornadic weather, she arrived just in time!

When I first got into the tub it felt so nice, but soon the contractions became so tough that with each one I had to jolt up from my relaxed position and hang my head over the edge, blow air through my lips like a horse, and stroke a soft towel that was under my head to try and distract myself. I could no longer talk at all through them. I remember at this point looking at Sarah and mumbling "No flash!", which is why from then on she had to do what she could with a borrowed rebel camera at 1600 f 1.4 and only 4 candles lighting the room.

I wanted SO BADLY to have a water birth, but for whatever reason, being in the warm water made me feel faint and so Carol decided I needed to get out and cool off. Throughout my labor Makayla would frequently check the baby's heart rate, and it was always good, but I knew it was not safe for a laboring woman to feel woozy, so I got out and laid on the bed.

Carol checked me again and said I was a good 7 with some cervical lip that was being stubborn. She broke my water to help things along more and soon I got the feeling of being "pushy", but it did not feel like I thought it would. I was under the impression, based on some of the birth stories I had read, that I would like this feeling but I did not. I sat backwards on the toilet and pushed a little bit, and then Carol suggested I go and hang onto one of the posts of the bed while squatting on the floor. While I did this she held back the last bit of cervix that wouldn't recede while I pushed. This is where painful became excruciating. I said a few words during this time that ladies do not usually utter, I may have claimed that I truly was going to die, and I asked repeatedly how much longer it would be until it was over. Unfortunately there was no answer to my question at the time, but it would be less than an hour.

As it turns out it was for the best that I was way way into "labor land" by this point, because tornado sirens were going off and candles were being lit in case the power went out and I don't even recall noticing. According to Sarah it only took me about 6 pushing contractions at this point to get him all the way out once my cervical lip was gone. I did not know it at this point, but I had torn a bit toward the front of my lady area and so Carol asked me to lay on the bed. This was probably so that gravity would be off that area, and to decrease my bleeding. I pushed and pushed, and cursed and cursed, and before I knew it I felt the strangest feeling I have ever felt in my life. A head was coming out of me! Now THIS was the only part of second stage labor that I can say I liked. I knew it was almost over and I finally remembered why I was doing it.

After baby's head came out, Carol turned to Forrest and told him to reach down and grab his son. He was not prepared for this, and in his bewildered state went to grab the baby with one hand on either side of my left thigh. There was a moment of confusion as he realized that he could not pick the baby up that way. In my eternal impatience I did not wait for things to get figured out, and instead reached down, pulled Augustine Ransom Womack out of myself, and brought him to my chest at 4:26 p.m.  It is worth noting that my mother retold this part to all of her friends and relatives as if I had leaped a tall building in a single bound.
Forrest holds my hand while I get stitched up...



When Augie came out, it was like meeting someone I had known my entire life for the very first time. He was a little bit purple in the face because he was tilted slightly to the side before he came all the way out, and also he came out with his right hand against his face. Both of these things probably factored significantly into the ouchy-ness of my labor. His eyes were, and still are, big and dark blue. He has a full head of blond hair that flips me out every time I look at him. Three weeks in, and he is still not much of a crier but rather just lets out a yelp once and awhile as if to say, "HEY! I need milk/cuddles/a new diaper." I love to watch him sleep, and I just absolutely cannot believe that he is the same little person who grew inside of me for nine months.  The same little person I talked to, bargained with, and loved so much before I ever saw him. I can't wait to see who he becomes and then let him read this story, and all the others I plan to write, to remind him who he was when he first started out...

Monday, April 2, 2012

The Little Uterus that Could...

So I am pretty ticked. I have been all day, and I am finally coming to terms with my lack of labor. Not because I just feel like I want the baby out, but because I really thought I was in LABOR! Late last night I was having quite a few painful contractions (for the first time I can say these were the "real deal" and not Brx Hx) and finally dosed off at about 1am thinking "THIS MIGHT BE IT!!". Cut to about 4am, I wake up with more painful contractions AND my back, front, and even thighs ache like I am having a very bad menstrual time. I get up to pee several times through the night, I even go get a banana and some milk. I switch positions, I sit up for a while, and I even get on my and knees for a bit. The contractions never get into a pattern, but I figure early labor is like that, right? I call my mom at 6 am to see if she has a class scheduled to teach, and to warn her this MIGHT be the start of something!

Cut to 7 am, one hour later, when I step out of bed to get up for the day. NOTHING. Immediately I feel fine--as if I hadn't been in pain all night. What. The. Crap. Are you kidding me? Oh well. I read up on prodromal labor today, and at least I may have become more dilated, or gotten the Aug-Frog into a better position. Oh yeah, and I have a few more stretch marks, too. Harumph.

Current Stats:

How far along: 40 WEEKS!!!!
Weight gain: ??  I don't have my appt until Weds and I don't own a scale
Cravings: Sandwiches. 
Sleep: Grr.
Moods: Grumpy as heck
Stretch Marks: Yeah. Sigh.
What I Miss: My sanity.
Milestones: Serious contractions. 
Looking Forward To: The REAL DEAL! 

Monday, March 26, 2012

Best News Ever!

So, those pounds I didn't gain last week? I gained four this week. I now feel a lot better, and am glad Little Bear is still growing. I can't dilly dally any longer-- I  HAVE GREAT NEWS!!

At today's appointment I met with midwife Amy (love her!) and she asked if I wanted to get "checked". Since I am WAY more curious than I am shy, I said yes! Ladies and gentlemen, Augie has dropped to a -2 station (awesome!), I am 50% effaced (awesomer!), and I am 1cm dilated (awesomest!!!!).

This was SUCH fun news to hear, especially since the last two days I have felt like my stomach is so big that I can barely sit without my legs being pointed straight out to my sides...much like a very obese trucker.Seriously...my belly is between my legs. It feels weird.  

Current Stats:

How far along: 39 weeks
Weight gain: 38lbs
Cravings: Losing my appetite a bit
Sleep: Still fine
Moods: Surreal
Stretch Marks: Same ones as before...
What I Miss: My mucous plug? jk...nothing
Milestones: Dropped, effaced, and dilated!! 
Looking Forward To: My baby boy!!!

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

38 (and a half) Week Appointment

Here is the plan: I am going to try SUPER hard to go into labor by the end of the week, because Leslie (my favorite midwife) is on call this weekend. I had my appointment with her today, and as it turned out, with an intern as well. She was a midwife-in-training from a local hospital and she actually conducted the appointment, but luckily Leslie stayed in the room and supplemented all the "answers" to questions that I had. Of course, I came with my usual list of strange questions, and I believe I may have freaked new-girl out. I just consider it good practice, because she is going to have to deal with other weirdos like me solo someday. Leslie sort of chuckled at the reaction I continued to get out of her, and then mentioned that she would be the one on call this weekend if  I decided to go into labor. That's when I knew for sure that Leslie loves me as much as I love her-- that she would actually look forward to delivering my baby! Woo-hoo!

Other strangeness: I actually LOST a tiny bit of weight this week instead of gaining. WHAT THE WHAT?!? I don't know how, because I eat like a....well...like a hungry pregnant woman. Seriously! Last night I had dinner, a post dinner snack, and then a post snack sandwich. I also woke up hungry in the night. Maybe Forrest is right-- I am not even that healthy, I just have a good metabolism. Also, this week my cervix has gone from a normal tight cervix that is trying keep a baby in, to the soft cervix of a woman who may or may not go into labor in the near future. I call that hope. I had been worried lately that since Augie hadn't "dropped", that meant I was nowhere near labor, but Lydia Weldy told me that her kiddo didn't drop until she was IN labor. That made me feel better-- I hate prerequisites.


Current Stats:

How far along: 38 weeks
Weight gain: 34lbs...still
Cravings: Baby kisses
Sleep: I has nightmares last night because I was reading before bed : (
Moods: Pretty excellent, with bits of hysteria
Stretch Marks: Same ones as before...
What I Miss: Nothing. I love making babies! I am so excited!
Milestones: Full on "Let's do this!" mode
Looking Forward To: Triumph! 

Monday, March 12, 2012

37 Weeks...The Final Stretch!

Today I had another appointment with midwife Leslie, and I think the final vote is that she is my favorite and I hope she is on call for my labor. She called me "cutie-pie" today when she was saying goodbye after my appointment. Some people would think of it as annoying to be called pet names by a medical professional, but I think she sees that I need reassurance. I am sure I give off that youngest child "Help! I need my mommy!" vibe with all my odd questions. Anyway, I love it. And she gives me hugs.

Basically, the same old stuff happened at this appointment and everything is looking good, but I did get a little bit more insight as to what the protocol is for the following weeks. If I haven't gone into labor by my 40 week appointment, then I will get my first vaginal exam. I asked her what this would tell them (since I know a couple cm dilation could mean ANYTHING as far as "how long until labor beings" goes) and she said it was more of a reference point. She said they would check me again at 41 weeks if I STILL hadn't had the baby, and see how much I had changed, if at all, from the last exam. If I had made progress, then maybe a little castor oil would be a good idea. If I had made NO progress, then maybe a bulb catheter (yipes!!) would be in order. We will just have to see how it goes down...

Current Stats:

How far along: 37 weeks
Weight gain: 34lbs
Cravings: Meat and Fruit
Sleep: Good, except my left hip hurts sometimes
Moods: Either good or desperate
Stretch Marks: grr.
What I Miss: Full range of motion. : (
Milestones: 37 weeks!! I am safe to birth at the center!! 
Looking Forward To: Losing weight. 

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

36 Weeks: Filled with Violations on My Womanhood.

Tuesday of this week I went to my 36 week appointment. Well, really I went on Monday of this week AND Tuesday, because my brain does not work right. Anyway, when I finally got my days sorted out, I was checked out by Midwife Carol. I have seen MW Leslie for my last several appointments and have definitely built a comfortable relationship with her, so I was glad to see Carol again. The only one of the three I have yet to have an appointment with is Amy, and I have two with her this month. So, by the time I go into labor, whichever MW is on call for that night/day will be a familiar face and voice that I will feel happy to be in the hands of and have a decent rapport with. This is one of my FAVORITE bits about using a midwife; I know exactly what I am getting into as far as "people who will get to see me hollering/crying/emitting strange fluids/sweating/contorting/loving on my new child". I can't imagine doing such a private thing in front of Dr._____ who is randomly on call because your real Doc is at Disney World that week...

Back to the topic at hand-- I had my GBS test this week and it was not nearly as bad as I thought it would be! I am used the protocol of a OBGYN's office, where you are given a medical gown, told to disrobe and that the Dr. will be there in a few minutes to do your PAP, etc etc. *Sitting, waiting, cold table, awkward, read magazine, awkward* Blah Blah Blah. I was prepared for this routine when I went in on Thursday, but that is not what I got. It was actually kind of funny. I was laying back on the chair with my sun dress up to my chest while Carol did the Doppler and felt around on me to see where he was and everything. Then, as she is putting it away and cleaning the gel of my tummy, she just says "okay pull down your panties a bit so I can get my swab culture". I (lying flat back on this table) reply that I can't really pull them farther than my hips because I am too fat to lean up. She says "Oh don't worry I will pull them further if I need to". I wanted to crack up. I love my birthing center. It took her all of a millisecond to swab and be done with it. It was much less like a medical procedure and more like your mom walking in on your when you are in the bathroom. Not a big deal.

I will get the results back at my appointment next week, and hopefully it will be negative so that I don't have to deal with antibiotics during labor. She also mentioned to me that since Augie is always head down with his back to my right side that I should try to sleep/lay as much as possible on my left side so that gravity might help him to become OA and not OP. It was a little hard to do last night and my left ear got pretty hot and gross feeling, but I will continue to try in the name of no back labor! In other sleepy-time news, Forrest says I have snored for the past two nights. Poor guy is slowly seeing his young wife turn into Olga the Inn-Keeper. I just made that up, but it sounds about right.

Finally, this weeks journey brings us to my purchase of *Da-dada-daaa* a package of ladies Depends. I was quite sad to have to make this purchase. My last bit of pride apparently rings up for $10.99 on sale. At our Bradley class it was highly recommended by the instructor to buy them, as the bleeding for the first few days postpartum can be treacherous. I kept trying to insist to Forrest that I would rather go around with a towel fashioned into a diaper or just lay in the yard on a pile of newspaper rather than wear Depends, but he insisted. I think it was a mixture of his desire to not have to deal with the "accidents" of a crying and exhausted woman at midnight and his fondness for finding out the things in life that make me squirm. Anyway, these things are atrocious. They go up far past my bellybutton, which I care about about not for the sake of fashion, but comfort. I think I will have to cut off the top third of all of them so that I don't itch to death and leave Augie motherless.

This is me trying them on.
Note: if any of you mama's who give birth want the rest of my pack of 18, I doubt I will use even half. Just let me know!

Monday, February 27, 2012

35 Week Checkup

Today was my 35 week appointment, and from now on my appointments will be every week! Augie is still pointed head down, and his back is along my right side. Hopefully this will eventually turn into him facing my spine, and not sunny side up. Lydia Weldy warns me that I do not want to encounter back labor. I was given a packet of information and such today, including a "what to pack" list, a description of what to do/how to know when you are really in labor, a description of a typical scenario of what will happen at the birth center when I am in labor/birthing/going home, and finally a sheet to fill out describing my "birth plan". This last sheet has questions such as, "Where/what position do you plan to birth in?" and "Who do you want to be present in the room with you?" Even things like "What kind of lighting will you prefer?" and "What is your perfect birth fantasy?" My MW says they will use this to refer to in my chart during my labor to make sure things are as comfortable as possible for me. I am feeling more an more pleased and relaxed with the choices I have made for Augie's birth, and I hope everything goes well, even if not perfectly. If there is a complication and I am transferred to the hospital, I am glad that it will be Allen Presbyterian, as this is the hospital I would've wanted to go to anyway. At the end of the experience, if it takes a painful natural birth, a c-section, or even a magician, as long as Augie is safe I will call it a win.

Next week's appointment will include my test for Group B Strep. Apparently about a third of all women are positive for GBS, and it is not that big of a deal, but it would mean that I would have to get a drip of antibiotics every 8 hours while I am in labor. No big deal, but I still really hope it comes back negative so I have one less thing to worry about.

Right now I am getting into packing mode, and making lists and notes about everything we will need to bring (which is really not much, since we won't have to stay long). One of Forrest's task's is to make 2 birthing CD's-- one with nice classical music for late labor relaxation, and one with mellow but more enjoyable tunes to listen to as a distraction in earlier labor. If anyone has good suggestions for songs, post them on my Facebook!! I have a feeling this will need to be a long CD.

Current Stats:

How far along: 35 weeks
Weight gain: 29lbs
Cravings: WATER! I am a thirst monster now.
Sleep: Still doing good on sleepy times.
Moods: Still a pretty happy lady.
Stretch Marks: YES! Ladies, I found my first stretch mark last week! Now I will point at it every time Augie acts bad and say "This is what you did to me!", like my mom did with her c-sec scar. 

What I Miss: Wine
Milestones: Stretchmark-ville. I have joined the sisterhood. One is enough, though : )
Looking Forward To: Learning how to nurse. I got my organic nipple cream this week!